woah. it's my birthday on Sunday I’ll be turning 26
But I am still currently 25 years of age in this moment.
I wasn’t gonna do one. BUT ALRIGHT hello 30 year old dodie. firstly a. very happy
late birthday. you’re welcome. did you watch 13 going on 30 to celebrate.
did you have a birthday bash. Your first album Build A Problem. Pluml. Has been out a while
now. How did it go? how was it received? -gasps- what album are you on now?! What songs have
you written?! What are they about! AHHH here’s your face. What do you think. Here’s
your makeup. How are the dodie dots? Can you still put them on are are you just too wrinkly.
Do they disappear into the folds of your eyes. Sorry, I’m joking. in return, what do you
find terrible cringey about the way i look and act right now? huh? go on. ROAST ME. this
is your living room but this is your bedroom. uh you’re currently waiting on moving to
LA you thought that was gonna happen so you didn’t actually buy a proper bed to sleep
in so um. Your neck hurts. Quite a lot all the time. You love a novelty bed, you! What
does your bed look like now, hm? Anyone sleeping in it with you?! You painted the room over
lockdown and prepped it - you actually thought you were going to be living alone but you
dont! you live with martin and gret. they’re the best I wonder if being alone to you feels
as awful as it does and did to me. Or are you older now and you enjoy alone time. One
of those people. Brain is still bad. A bit. Hi editing dodie here your brain actually
isn’t that bad I just don’t think you were feeling well when you were recording
this. Quite a lot of the time you’re alright! Um. You know. understandable considering the
circumstances. Still spaced out? Still derealised? Where are you at with that now? Have you had
any moments of relief? Are you back? Probably not. And that’s okay. Now I mentioned lockdown.
I’d love to document my thoughts while i’m in it. You can have some lockdowny things
to look back on. There was the summer where you lived with Hazel and that was actually
really nice. Did a lot of balcony sunbathing. Hazel baked banana brick and then successfully
banana bread. Oh my god why are there so many motorbikes? What’s everyone doing? Everyone
ordering ubereats does uber eats still exist? Deliveroo? hm? is there a new competitor?
there were the NHS claps on thursday evening. That felt like a really weird time. Definitely
got the sense that history was being written. It was all a novelty at first. And then I
think everyone started to go a bit feel. EVeryone was trying to police on the right thing to
do. There was a while where you’d get cancelled for wearing a mask because you were taking
them away from people who needed it. And now you get cancelled if you don’t wear a mask.
What is going on. But. That’s just everyone trying to gain control. When you don’t have
any. can you do this still? ha. There are announcements everywhere to wear a mask at
all times. “face coverings are mandatory” and there are adverse saying we miss you!
See you soon! It all felt very apocalyptic at first but now it just feels. Normal. Funny
how your brain adapts in stressful times. It’s weird to think that something I’ve
mourned will come back. That doesn’t usually happen. It feels really strange that I used
to be able to go out and do things. Like I was in a video game! And I could spend time
by going to the cinema or to a museum! I really hope that you take full advantage of that.
And use your time wisely by having so many great memories to look back on. Because that’s
all I have at the moment. I sound like an old lady. I sound like you. An old lady. I
can’t wait to go out and do things. With the people I love. Speaking of! How are you
friends? How is… I’m reluctant to name anyone because obviously life changes and
that is weird. I was alright last time but how is. How’s hazel? How’s sam? dan evan
martin gret orla josh shannon jack lucy hannah bethan rosianna OKAY! Oooh who are the new
friends you’ve made? Who do you know now that i can’t believe i dont know? what is
the new experience that you’ve had that you can’t believe i haven’t had yet? Good
or bad? What is your new favourite piece of art? What have you seen that I haven’t seen
yet? The last thing I saw in the cinema was portrait of a lady on fire! AHH! Please watch
that again if you’ve forgotten how good that is. There you go. A treat for you. What
is the new social media? cause currently tiktok is on to. tiptop. how you feel about that
media now? yeah i wonder if it’s all a little outdated now. Okay let’s get deep again.
COMEON. what does time feel like to you? Cause life feels long. Currently. After looking
back at all of that old footage of us a child it blows my mind how far away childhood feels.
It feels like another universe like another life. So much happened. Does that feeling
of time passing shrink the older you get? Does 5 years feel as big is did passing from
20-25? Or did it go by in the blink of an eye? Maybe not that much has changed because
um. You know you’re more likely to settle now that you’re older. Have you settled?!!
Oh my god. How’s your family? How’s your mam? And sister? How’s your brother? Is
grandad still kicking? he would be 100 years old if so. Um. Have you figured out the other
thing? I’m still struggling. Do you have a cat yet? Do you have a car yet? Can you
drive? I tried learning manual over lockdown um. But it’s just too hard. I have to concentrate
on not killing anyone. I reckon it’s automatic all the way now. So. Is it 2030? Yes. No.
2025. no. yes! yes. I’m cheating. that’s not that far away. I really thought it’d
be 2030 but then no. That’s really not that far away. Yeah how’s the planet? hm? How’s
the state of the world? Here’s your phone! This is your background palm trees! missing
LA. We’ve got no home button. But we do have face ID. What’s next? Are they like
see through yet? Like see through phones is that a thing? How’s your heart? ooh how’s
your body! Do you have one less gallbladder and four less wisdom teeth? Or did you not
have the balls to do that yet. tut. can you do anything impressive that i can’t do back
here? Can you do the splits? Can you play something on a musical instrument that I can’t
play here? I dunno. I’ve ran out of notes now so i’m talking freely. Wonder where
you’ve been. Wonder what you’ve done. I wonder who you love. I wonder who you miss.
It doesn’t seem that long. It really doesn’t. Alright I will wrap up! I just hope wherever
you are, um, you know that I love you! and I’m in you! Remember to look after me and
all of the young dodie so that we can look after ourselves. Yes. Oh man! right good luck!
DRY YOUR EYES! I dunno maybe you’re not crying this time! Who knows! I find it fascinating
that things have happened that i can’t even conceptualised because I don’t have the
experiences the time or the life to even imagine it. I just have no idea. life is wild. okay
i’m gonna have a big cup of tea which i take with either sugar or honey and a lot
of oat milk. I wonder if everyone is vegan. ha. Okay bye! Oh also this is your favourite
colour. Obviously. What is it now? Do you hate sage green now? BYE!